Aside 14 Oct


Today I ask for your forgiveness…

As a child, I snuggled in your fur…I wrapped my arms around your neck.

I played, in awe but fearless.

Pulled dagger teeth, poked  glassy eyes, grasped languid razor claws.

Hard plaster tongue & snout; lifeless, chipped, dusty.

Pelt limp, spreadeagled trimmed with felt, balding, bullet scarred & faded.

Bones broken, missing; Death.

I did not think of  you alive  White Tiger Skin Rug. 

 

 White Tiger waves

 

 

Artist John Lavery 1883…

25 Jul

At Langside

Mary, Queen of Scots at Langside.

Mary Queen of Scots Rosneath

Dawn after the Battle of Langside 14th May 1586.

Mary, Queen of Scots sheltering under the Yew trees at Rosneath. Did she ever visit Rosneath?

Shadow…our first & best Ferret.

23 Jul

Son James became interested in Ferrets as a young teen and his mentor Linda found him Shadow. A lovely, and probably deaf wee soul, so gentle and sweet, smelled of honey and very cuddly. He was one of 4 we had, twin females, very small, and one huge one who managed to escape. Here is Shadow…died a few years back & sadly missed x

Shadow

The Bodyblade Classic…

22 Nov

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Bought this Bodyblade Classic to work my upper body. A hearty workout for my arms, shoulders & neck…have only tried it sitting down so far, and keep it by my desk so I can pick it up easily at least once a day. Nice and refreshing to use, good bye bingo wings?

bodyblade-700

At last…the perfect way to stop smoking.

3 Nov

vype-eTank

The Vype E Tank

Looks good, feels good with its smooth silicone skin, and gives a similar puff to cigarettes…NOT the HUGE VAPE of some high tech devices. Complete break from smoking by my friend Edward, and he now, after three weeks PREFERS his VYPE to the old smelly tobacco. Good job, well done.

Weeks have passed & still smoke free!!!

The Price of Insight

16 May

A Mind Divided

I'm OK

A prominent feature of  schizophrenia and bipolar disorder is anosognosia, a sick person’s unawareness that he is sick. — Algis Valiunas, New Atlantis, Winter 2009.

No one really understands why those of us with serious mental illness struggle with insight.  Current medical theory holds that it’s actually a core feature of our neurobiology.  It’s not that we’re in denial or stubborn—we simply can’t see.

This seems ridiculous to those observing from the outside as our behavior becomes more risky and disjointed.  But those are the times when our insight is most impaired, because anosognosia is also a symptom. We lose insight just when we need it most.

Lack of insight is relative.  It fluctuates as the illness fluctuates.  When we are in remission or in a more stable state, we can often see that we were ill.

Lack of insight is listed as the leading cause of non-compliance…

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Lusitania’s Dead, Old Cemetery, Cobh, County Cork

21 Mar

As I searched for the three mass graves of the victims of RMS Lusitania at the Old Cemetery, Queenstown, now Cobh, my hair stood on end and my body tingled.

I quickly realised I had just walked over the first mass grave site…a  moment I shall never forget.

Web Spinners, Embioptera, in my kitchen…

20 Mar

Web Spinner

We just found a baby Web Spinner…Embioptera, in the kitchen this evening. I had not seen one for several years, so I am thrilled there is still a colony living under our heating boiler…

They weave a tiny nest, using web and fluff, and the nest I found had the shell of an M&M sweetie incorporated in it…exotic, harmless & welcome little creatures. I am very happy.